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seren's closet--dun get suffocated in itWhat the heart thinks the blog tells...but yet there's too much more that the blog couldnt tell..... 8月7日 点名游戏－－－被亲爱的倩点到了01.你相信人有前世来生吗？ 不确定 02.你怎么知道自己喜欢一个人？ 会为他处处担忧，总是挂念着他 03.你喜欢的人不喜欢你怎么办？ 放手让别人爱自己 04.当生命中遇到爱情和面包两者必须二选一时，你会怎么选？为什么？ 爱情，拥有富足的生活却只有空虚的精神世界，我会窒息 05.如果你的爱人觉得你不在乎他/她，你会如何告诉他你的心？ 用话语和行动双向证实 06.会不会有一首歌让你想起一个人？甚至想哭？ 不会 07.你认为爱情是什么？ 让你全心爱着他，让你觉得奋斗的意义就是未了他，时常勾画有他的未来 08.你相信爱情吗？ 开始变得不相信 09.当有人伤害你的时候，你怎么办？ 发泄 痛哭 冷漠 上路 10.你的理想老婆/老公是什么样的？ 老公：忠诚 上进 爱家 有才 11.给你一次机会重来，你会做什么？ 仍做现在的自己 12.你相信现在所发生的一切都是命中注定的吗？ 也许 13.你最大的愿望是什么? 健康的父母，知心的爱人，和睦的家庭 14.这辈子到现在为止有没有让你认为做的最错最后悔的事情？ 有。就是认识并逐渐接受了一个彻头彻尾的伪君子，背叛者，我恨他入骨 15.你旅行的地方，最喜欢哪里？为什么？ 去的地方很少，目前尚难以选择 16.今后想做什么职业？ 让自己开心的，可以发挥自己的特长的 17.如果有一天我们无法再联络，你想起我是，会记得我什么样子？ 善良，纯真， 18.你会怎样权衡友情，爱情？在时间、精力、情感投入上？ 真正的爱情和友情放在我的面前，我可能会无法抉择，不忍心去伤害真正关爱我的人，在时间，精力可能会偏向爱人多一点，情感上可能会平分。 19.你觉得自己最大的优点和缺点是什么？ 优点：单纯善良 ；缺点：轻易相信别人 20.你觉得这辈子活到现在最大的收获是什么？ 有了我热爱的英语 把第一题改了吧，改成：你想要什么样的生活？ 点谁的名呢？ －只要你愿意回答 请留下你的感受 5月22日 Bus Guy - Could you be the one？Lont time no write. All of a sudden I have the impulse to write sth down about him. In my last entry, I mentioned him – the guy I met on the bus. I never thought I could go further with him. However, things changed. My view, even my mom’s view is changing greatly. She even becomes supportive to my relation with him. I couldn’t deny I am somehow fond of him now. But my dad still has doubts, which makes me very very shaky. I am self-contradicted. I guess I am not a girl who tends to be bothered by love thing while this time I am giving more thoughts about him and our future. I tried to keep distance from him. I even tried to disappear in his world. All my attempts don’t seem to thwart him even a little bit. He never gives up. He remains enthusiastic even if I show him my cold shoulder time and time again. People are not cold-blooded and I am sure not one of the rarest. His resolution and enthusiasm is gradually warming me up. Shamed to mention, but he embraced me, which made me feel annoyed at first but later began to feel his tenderness. For some certain moments, I begin to miss him and his words. I hate it while I am missing him, cuz so far I couldn’t promise him any thing and I don’t have confidence in our future yet. Resistance to him might be a temporary way for me to chill out. But, but, so many buts, he is forever optimistic. He firmly believes I am the only one for his whole life. He even swears to kill all his possible choices. I am kinda frightened when I see his blind and surging emotions. I dare not meet him while sometimes I do want to see him. I want to see him becuz I begin to have feelings for him too. I dare not see him becuz now his feeling for me is too much and I fear it might burn me out. I am really in the middle of nowhere about him and me. Quit now? I don’t think he will let me and I think that will hurt him a lot. Carry on with him while the chance for us to get together is so slim? That would hurt us both in the end if nothing works out. Well, do not wanna think about it any more..let it be..but for sure, I could not walk so close to him for the time being……. 1月1日 走过一段路，回忆一些事。有些事总来的突然，但是却早已在脑海中私有若无地发生过...When i get back to my space, i suddenly realize it has been neglected for too long a time. Five months, anything could happen during this period. Lots of things which i never thought would happen before veritably happened. An introspection suggested itself to me. Yes, I got to write down sth that is of some significance to me in my life.
Initially there were moments that i wanted to quit my job. At that time i felt i could not carry on any more. But things kept changing, and luckily, for the better. I gradually met the recognition of the top manager here. and there was a fat chance that i would be transferred to shanghai for further development soon. I dont know what life there could be. But i would give it a try. it'll be the first time that i walk out of nanjing and start my life totally on my own. it is exciting!
at the same time, i had a very dramatic bus encounter. That was a guy who said he become fond of me at first sight. can i really be someone's dream girl? ha, that sounds fun to me. but later i find he isnt joking with me. he buys me chocolate, scarf, roses, and he comes to see me every weekend. Deep down i think nothing would work out for us. But for some selfish thoughts, I still like to keep him aside as a good friend. Cuz I think our way of knowing each other only happen once in a lifetime.
I still clearly remember it wa a day after my work. I was exhausted. That day I didnt take subway. It was on a bus and it was crowded. I held the rail and looked outside of the window silently. At a certain stop, a guy went on and stood next to me. For some unknown reasons, I felt he glanced at my side from time to time. I easily thought, "maybe the girl next to me caught his attention." So i didnt think further. however, his view seemed to be only reserved for me. The bus couldnt run forever, we had to get off at the final stop. He followed me down, forgetting he actually should have got off earlier. He plucked up his courage and started to accost me. In that way he got my number and we began to know each other.
He is a good-looking one, comely, gentle and considerate. Later when i kidding him, he would always blush and says, "you are the first girl that i started chatting on my own accord." I can see he is good to me. but i also know this is not where i am gonna stop and repose. I dont know what kind of guy i want. But i am searching, hoping the right one would show up in a good time.
Good news, recently my cousin got to know an incredibly rich guy thru a blind date and now they are going on very well. I somehow admire her. At this hour, I feel the need to question myself. is it just becuz that guy is rich? and one's amour-propre could be satisfied by the so called material wealth? i admit being rich is good. but sure it shouldnt be the priority to me. I am waiting for someone who is first rich in mind and second rich in property. but after the incidence of my cousin's being dating with a milionaire, I need to remind myself occasionally, true love still sheds over everything. So i should be happy that i am so much cherished by someone. we should learn to be thankful, cuz we have already got a lot, knowingly or unknowingly.
X'mas is coming. Presently I miss my dear roommates a lot, esp Evan (who looks tough but actually very vulnerable at heart), sure everybody else. How have you guys been? I wish to have a get-together with you all soon. Give all my cordial blessings to ya all...
This piece wasnt sent out in due time. Now I pick to send it agin. Jessie is leaving for France tomorrow..Kinda of unwilling to let her go. But it is the way she should go. Guess there would be a big change on her after she comes back again. I am expecting to see another totally new her. Here I give all my best wishes to her and wish her a bon voyage!
7月15日 summary of past several monthsgenerally speaking, it is a boring day today. for the whole day i stay at home doing nothing. actually i have some paperwork to type into my computer, but for no reasons i'd rather idle away the time than make use of it and do some work. lookin' back, it's been long that i havent added up any new entry to my blog. shall i say i've been kept too busy? yes to some extent...not only physically, but also mentally.for the past several months, too many things happened. i graduated, i got a job, i got some new friends, i even tried blind date (hah, my mom arranged this for me). things always happen for a reason, good or bad. i changed my job three times in three months. i know this job-hopping thing is no good. but i knew i was not content with my life and in the mind to forward till i find a worthwhile thing to do. finallly i thought i got one. I was said to be the first one been recruited. without too much sencond thought, i quit my 2nd job and head for the 3rd one. it is a so called world top 500, and also that's the stunt to trick me in. i wasn't aware of the hardship thereinto until i myself was placed into that office. our manager is way too strict and very very hard to please. she is critical about almost everything. as her assistant, i am naturally the directest victim. i was scolded, i was undervalued...i was chagrined at the way she treated me. confonted with all these, i grined and beared it. i hope someday i could see the light ahead, cuz deep down i know she is kind and nice, and she will appreciate me one day. btw, we have a very good country manager, who is an australian, and very gentle and approachable. he and our program manager agreed on choosing me for this position. so i've been grateful to them both. now i wanna conclude all the things i need to do for my work. i am tired, and i am overloaded, but i know this will help me to grow quickly and build up my career in the long run. Below are the things i am required to do:
now forget about my job and go back to my school life. last i graduated from my dear nj normal univ. there are bitter-sweet memeries. one thing that is so worthy of reminiscing is that i made some very good bosom friends during my school life, evan, maggie, jessie, sharon, weiwei and ivy..no matter where you guys go, you will be always on my mind. now we all have a new start where most things are possible. let's struggle for it!
hehe, one thing funny is that my mom now becomes enthusiastic about introducing some good guys to me. ha, i even had a blind date. but he is not my type and i am not his type either, so we ended up naturally after the first meeting. i hope the right one will show up in the near future. after all, now i am not too young for love.
i'll keep you guys posted and i hope to get news from u all too.
take good care 3月8日 三月的第一篇BLOG新鲜出炉~well..it's been a long time...regretfully i leave the total Feb log blank....it is just a month, but it
seems months' long...ever thought i would make this space my lifelong haunt...but lately i often wonder, doubt whether i would keep it to my initial decision...life is dangling. during this month, too much happened. it is like i am sometimes on the bottom of the valley, sometimes flow with the tide heading nowhere....most of the time i am perplexed, thinking maybe i should simply resign myself to providence, and fight no more...cuz a phase of effortful stuggle ended up with nothing, which undoubtfully thwarted my morale...but there were also moments which boost my spirits...the acquision of bec higher certificate, the well-ending of my last exam in univ, the shaping up of final paper, the potentiality of getting a job....all these help to build up my confidence again...yes! confidence is important. it makes u feel good about urself and gives u impetus to move on....seemingingly i am the one who is quite lack of confidence, and inside i am too...tho ppl around always assure how good i am, all i lack is some confidence. like today, mar. 8th, i went shopping with mom and dad, aiming at buying some formal wearings for later work...the shopkeeper was so hospitable that she took out so many clothes and trousers for me to try on, again and again, very patiently... and kept saying i am a very good gal, hehe:) meanwhile, she talked a lot abt his overseas son, who sounded exceedingly excellent. she even showed me his photos, and she wished we could establish contact online...hehe, i'd like to know him:) i tend to write when i feel bad...and for the past several blogs, they r all gloomy and murky...
i hope later i could write sth positive and bright. i know life is filled with too many uncertainties and insecurites, but i know better that i would tackle them well and advance sturdily....
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